I dunno what to say ..
I stayed away from writing on purpose.
thought it would help me,
that by refusing to write whatever I felt like saying I'd somehow make it go away,
but really it didn't.
maybe I have to do this, maybe because it's the one thing I know how to do.
Anyway, so the thing is I'm tired.. I dunno why am I tired. I just feel like I wanna quit any moment now.
I dunno what to do with my life. I mean I know what to do tomorrow, I know what to do next week.
I just don't know what to do the next 20 years of my life.
At some point I thought I had it all figured out, that I'm gonna move from here and be somewhere I belong and start a life there.
even that is gone now
and I don't know what to do
I'm more lost at this point in my life than I've ever been.