I've always always had this feeling that i'm the odd one out and throughout my whole life I just wanted more than anything else to fit in. That's why I joined the popular Islamic group at college and filled out their stupid membership form when I didn't even know what it takes to reach that. I just wanted to be part of something, despite the being of the group. I thought that by forcing myself into their cliques .. I would definitely get that honor of being one of 'them', That by sharing stuff with majority somehow I can finally consider myself normal.
The more reason to make me feel really worthless at the moment .